Writing Woes

Hey guys, how’s it going?

I know I’ve been MIA for a bit, and that’s mostly because I’ve been writing … or trying to write and then hating everything.

I’ve been in this funk where I’ve been starting to doubt myself and what I’m writing. A part of me feels like, maybe people will read my book and think it’s stupid, y’know? Like, after reading, they’d think it’s garbage or something or the other. Every time I try to write something now I just feel like maybe I should stop and give up, and try to write something else that doesn’t sound as “stupid” or “silly”.

For all of you writers out there, have you felt this way before?

Book Review: Flamecaster

23253083 Flamecaster by Cinda Williams Chima

Series: Shattered Realms #1

Publisher: HarperCollins

Published: April 5, 2016

two-stars

A burning vengeance.

Adrian sul’Han, known as Ash, is a trained healer with a powerful gift of magic—and a thirst for revenge. The son of the queen of the Fells, Ash is forced into hiding after a series of murders throws the queendom into chaos. Now Ash is closer than he’s ever been to killing the man responsible, the cruel king of Arden. As a healer, can Ash use his powers not to save a life but to take it?

A blood-based curse.

Abandoned at birth, Jenna Bandelow was told the mysterious magemark on the back of her neck would make her a target. But when the King’s Guard launches a relentless search for a girl with a mark like hers, Jenna assumes that it has more to do with her role as a saboteur than any birth-based curse. Though Jenna doesn’t know why she’s being hunted, she knows that she can’t get caught.

Destiny’s fiery hand.

Eventually, Ash’s and Jenna’s paths will collide in Arden. Thrown together by chance and joined by their hatred of the king, they will come to rescue each other in ways they cannot yet imagine.

It hurts me to no end to give this book less than five stars. Flamecaster was one of my most anticipated books to release this spring. I loved the Seven Realms series so much, you have no idea the love that series held in my heart. I expected to love this new book just as fiercely. Except I didn’t. I’ll explain why below but keep in mind that if you click to read on, there will be spoilers.

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Book Review: The Winner’s Kiss

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The Winner’s Kiss by Marie Rutkoski

Series: The Winner’s Trilogy #3

Publisher: Farrar, Straus & Giroux

Published: March 29, 2016

five-stars

Some kisses come at a price.

War has begun. Arin is in the thick of it with untrustworthy new allies and the empire as his enemy. Though he has convinced himself that he no longer loves Kestrel, Arin hasn’t forgotten her, or how she became exactly the kind of person he has always despised. She cared more for the empire than she did for the lives of innocent people—and certainly more than she did for him.

At least, that’s what he thinks.

In the frozen north, Kestrel is a prisoner in a brutal work camp. As she searches desperately for a way to escape, she wishes Arin could know what she sacrificed for him. She wishes she could make the empire pay for what they’ve done to her.

But no one gets what they want just by wishing.

As the war intensifies, both Kestrel and Arin discover that the world is changing. The East is pitted against the West, and they are caught in between. With so much to lose, can anybody really win?

This book was everything I could have ever wanted from this series. Honestly, this was such a perfect end to the trilogy and this has become one of my favourite series. Rutkoski’s writing is so amazing and ugh, such perfection.  Continue reading “Book Review: The Winner’s Kiss”

The Fear of Writing

Hey everyone, how’s it going?

I’ve been somewhat MIA lately, and I have a very good reason. I recently decided, somewhat last minute, to sign up for Camp NaNoWriMo. It’s currently taking place during this month of April, and I’m in the midst of writing a 50,000 word … novel? Novella? I hope to finish 50k by the end of the month, at the very least. A part of me feels that I’ll end up writing past the 50k limit, but who knows?

For all my fellow writers out there, I have a question for you all. Are you scared of writing? Recently, I’ve been finding reasons to put off writing. I know I can write 10k in one sitting, I’ve done it before—especially when the inspiration hits, you know? But, whenever I open Scrivner, I get extremely anxious before I even type a single word in. And so, I find myself trying to find something else to do on the Internet instead of committing myself to write. For example, what I’m doing right now, haha. I’m just so extremely terrified, and I have no idea why.

Okay, maybe I have an inkling of an idea. I haven’t written anything substantial in quite some time. I’ve always ever written fanfic, and the last time I even wrote that was way back in 2010. So, the other day, when I was furiously typing away trying to get something onto paper, I found myself cringing at what I had written. Guys, I’m not going to lie to you… it was terrible. Absolutely and horrifically terrible. I was ashamed of myself because I knew I could do better. As I was writing, I desperately wanted to go back and edit and re-write, but I had to push myself forward. I knew that getting back into writing was going to be hard, I knew was going to be rusty but shit, I didn’t expect to sound like a bad fanfic writer.

And to make matters worse, I kept shifting between past and present tense. It’s like my head knows what’s right to make the story flow properly, but my writing style is just so comfortable in present tense! Ugh. I blame 2010 kpop fanfic writing, honestly. So, this is my dilemma. Do I continue in the past tense, as I’ve been doing so far (all 1800 words) or, do I say screw it to hell and write in the present tense? Let’s be real here, I’ve yet to read a single YA fantasy book in the present tense and honestly, I’m not even sure I would enjoy it unless the author pulled it off really, really well. And, if we’re still being real, I’m not sure I can be that author. Ugh. I know, I have my answer as to what to do but I’m still somewhat making a face, haha.

I know, my mind doesn’t shut up. If only it could shut up for at least an hour so I can write something decent. Maybe.

I also need to hunt down a beta, or several, actually. Does anyone have any suggestions as to a place where one might troll for one? I’ve signed up for scribophile, but I would also like to try other places. I basically need someone to hold my hand and yell and bitch at me, but also someone to bounce ideas off of. I’m not trying to get many people involved in my writing process (aka people in my real life) but, yeah.

Happy Friday!! I hope everyone else’s day is going better than my glum one.

Book Review: Bookishly Ever After

21018154Bookishly Ever After by Isabel Bandeira

Series: Ever After #1

Publisher: Spencer Hill Contemporary

Published: January 19, 2016

three-stars

In a perfect world, sixteen-year-old Phoebe Martins’ life would be a book. Preferably a YA novel with magic and a hot paranormal love interest. Unfortunately, her life probably wouldn’t even qualify for a quiet contemporary.

But when Phoebe finds out that Dev, the hottest guy in the clarinet section, might actually have a crush on her, she turns to her favorite books for advice. Phoebe overhauls her personality to become as awesome as her favorite heroines and win Dev’s heart. But if her plan fails, can she go back to her happy world of fictional boys after falling for the real thing?

My original rating of this book was 2.5 stars, and looking back on it now I think it’s a little too harsh. However, do take my rating of 3 stars very lightly, as well. I would say that my rating is between the 2.5 and 3 stars. I was really excited to get my hands on this book because I felt that Phoebe and I were kindred spirits.  Continue reading “Book Review: Bookishly Ever After”

Book Review: The Imposter Queen

23495112The Imposter Queen by Sarah Fine

Series: The Imposter Queen

Publisher: Margaret K. McElderry Books

Published: January 5, 2016

three-half-stars

Sixteen-year-old Elli was only a child when the Elders of Kupari chose her to succeed the Valtia, the queen who wields infinitely powerful ice and fire magic in service of her people. The only life Elli has known has been in the temple, surrounded by luxury, tutored by magic-wielding priests, preparing for the day when the queen perishes—and the ice and fire find a new home in Elli, who is prophesied to be the most powerful Valtia to ever rule.

But when the queen dies defending the kingdom from invading warriors, the magic doesn’t enter Elli. It’s nowhere to be found.

Disgraced, Elli flees to the outlands, home of banished criminals—some who would love to see the temple burn with all its priests inside. As she finds her footing in this new world, Elli uncovers devastating new information about the Kupari magic, those who wield it, and the prophecy that foretold her destiny. Torn between her love for her people and her growing loyalty to the banished, Elli struggles to understand the true role she was meant to play. But as war looms, she must choose the right side before the kingdom and its magic are completely destroyed.

I don’t know what I was expecting when I picked this book up, but I’m so glad that I did because it was so good. I thought that The Imposter Queen was going to be an okay read, but I wasn’t expecting to be completely sucked into its world. The Imposter Queen isn’t about your typical heroine, it’s about knowing your destiny only to have it ripped from you. And it’s fucking amazing.  Continue reading “Book Review: The Imposter Queen”

Book Review: The Dark Days Club

15993203The Dark Days Club by Alison Goodman

Series: Lady Helen #1

Publisher: Viking Books for Young Readers

Published: January 26, 2016

four-stars

London, April 1812. On the eve of eighteen-year-old Lady Helen Wrexhall’s presentation to the queen, one of her family’s housemaids disappears-and Helen is drawn into the shadows of Regency London. There, she meets Lord Carlston, one of the few who can stop the perpetrators: a cabal of demons infiltrating every level of society. Dare she ask for his help, when his reputation is almost as black as his lingering eyes? And will her intelligence and headstrong curiosity wind up leading them into a death trap?

I obviously was expecting to like this book because Alison Goodman, and ughhhh I was definitely not disappointed. This book was amazing, with such wonderful characters and a plot that kept you at the edge of your seat until the very end.  Continue reading “Book Review: The Dark Days Club”